It seems 2016 is just flying by! Its already the month of May!
When 2016 started I had no resolution, rather I chose a theme, something I wanted to focus on this year: Perseverance
So as I have gone through my first trimester I wanted to take time to assess how my perseverance is going.
But first, back to the beginning of the year. As I sat down with my notebook to remember 2015 and to make plans for the year to come it was hard for me to pick a theme. Perseverance kept coming to my mind but I found it so elusive and a bit boring! I scribbled a lot of themes o my notebook but that word just kept nagging me!
So in the end I reluctantly chose Perseverance as a theme.
Boy I’m glad I chose it! Perseverance is exactly what I need right now in many aspects of my life:
Career:
So far the year 2016 has been harder then my first year in business for different reasons. Mainly I have focused on expanding the home staging side of the business because it is my first love. I was happy to report partnerships with 4 real estate teams at the end of last year but none of them worked out like I was expecting. 1 team of agents basically tried to take advantage of me while the others didn’t respect their part of the deal. Last year I stopped doing freelancing with bigger design firms so I could focus on my own, however I had a hard time finding good contracts on my own. For all these reasons I was not able to reach my goals in terms of sales and notoriety.
Fitness:
I have always loved to workout and been doing it since I was 17. But lately I found myself more and more unmotivated to workout. Because of my weight gain last year, I think I focused too much on the way I look and I have been disappointed with myself. Also for some reason it’s a lot harder to see the results then ever!
Motherhood:
I love my son BUT it’s been really tough lately. He is two and a half and it’s that season of tantrums. Sometimes on a day to day basis its hard to see the fruit of the hard work I put into taking care of him, physically and emotionally. My son used to love day care but he woke up one day and he didn’t want to go anymore, every morning its a fight to get him to go and then he cries and I feel like the worst mother in the world. I talked to the day care workers, they say one he is a day care he is ok, basically it seems like a phase he is going through.
So what do you do when plans don’t workout the way you imagined? How do you look at yourself in the mirror and love what you see when you’re 20lbs heavier (on a small 5’2 frame it feels like 50lbs!)? How do you smile when your heart is broken every morning as you leave your toddler at day care?
In the dictionary persverance is described as steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success.
I also read the Bible daily ad I love this scripture:
I keep on pressing on. I keep looking for avenues to reach my goals, I keep striving to accept myself just the way I am, I keep giving my best to my child. In the process I will get stronger, I will build more endurance, I will build more character and I will get to a place where I can connect the dots. Often, in the moment, it’s hard to understand why we go through certain trials big or small. Its only when we look back that we are able to see how the dots connect. Often I give up before I can understand… Not this year
Watch me! Or Read me I should say : )
